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everything disappears
that makes and breaks in fears
they are god
they are tears
take my worries
hide me here
I am god
I am fear
bleed open, bleed in tears
give me dreams
blood in fear, blood in streams
they can fill you with my tears
break me, make me, hold me near
they're not sure they can survive the fear
all of me is yours to break
I would rather sink in faith
everything disappears
that makes and takes in fear
they are worries filled with hate
no one cares I dream in facts
fear is open, sign this pact
place your fears underwraps
everything reappears
and makes and breaks all the fears
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last summer we decided to take it slow
I never stopped to ask you where you wanted to go
that night at the beach you turned to light
and I guess I proved that you were right
will this feeling go away
the feeling that I don't belong
in the hands I yearn to hold
would you ask me to stay
if I packed my things and left
without a word
I remember when you dove into the lake
stunning in the air,you defied fate
surrounded by fireflies we kissed under the moon
my entire world passed me by as you left the room
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when it comes to you, i'll set aside
everything, everything, everything, everything, everything, everything, everything
they'll never take us dead or alive
you're my everything, everything, everything, everything, everything, everything
but are you as ride or die?
ride or die, do or die, you and i
if someone looks at you askew, homicide
i'm broke inside, but you make me shine
your absence got me thinking about suicide,
oh my, you got me tripping
walked out the door, mental health is slipping
bitches on bitches, no comparing
i walked to a bridge cuz my heart was tearing in two
why do i need you?
you were the truth, or at least i thought
a girl like me should be paying no thoughts
to thots who don't seek the things that i've sought
oh no, i've done it again
falling in love just trying to be friends
no end, i wanna be free
cuz if there's a you, there'll never be a me
suicide
my suicide
you're my suicide
you're my suicide, suicide, suicide
when it comes to you, i've made up my mind
i don't want the truth, i'll just live in my lie
my fantasy is you and i, you and i, you and i
real life is suicide, suicide, suicide
my fantasy is you and i, you and i, you and i
real life is suicide, suicide, suicide
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don't you want me or am i nothing?
way too cloying or too adoring?
i just stay up, i wanna fade out
i just stay fucked, gotta stay proud
i'll fuck it up, god can sort it out
i'll fuck it up, let god sort me out
blood taints the sand
swimming from the ocean
make me god
baby, let me fall out of love
baby, let me fall out of love
baby, let me fall out of love
baby, let me fall in the water
baby, i wanna fall out of love
baby, i wanna fall out of love
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there's nothing you can try
it's just what i decide
if it breaks, then so it breaks
oh my god, what have i done? what have i done?
if it breaks, it breaks, it breaks, it breaks, it breaks
and so it goes and so it goes
oh my god, what have i done? what have i done?
if it breaks, it breaks, it breaks, it breaks, it breaks
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everything that I have done and I have seen
it comes to me
And everything that isn't true and isn't real
I set it free
you are a dream
in this world
what do we mean
in this world
and everything that ever breathed and ever bled
are things I see
and everything that grew on earth and walked on earth
can never be
you are a dream
in this world
what do we mean
in this world
and everything I haven't shown and do not know
it leaves me be
and all of this I haven't said, breaking of bread
it leaves from me
you are a dream
in this world
what do we mean
in this world
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there's no sense in
killing myself for you
tripping over you
i'm slipping away from you
come to my senses
you were never there for me
you hardly cared for me
you're a liar
liar, liar
set my heart on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
liar, liar
baby, set my life on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
liar, liar
set my heart on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
liar, liar
baby, set my life on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
putting love on ice, ice now
fell for your tricks once, twice, thrice, nah
no more, no more, no more
my love's a closed door, i'm bored, ignore
no contest, keep my thought process pure
got a sickness but you're not the cure
not you - antibody rejection
your affection's affected, i'm so tired of you vexing me
you're my tears, you're my tear
you're my fear, you don't care, i'm so scared
cannot bear anymore nightmares
why'd you fuck me after tearing me in two?
why do i need you
you're a parasite, i can't feed you
suicide cuz i can't grieve you
out of my mind, i can't leave you
oh god
liar, liar
liar, liar
liar, liar
liar, liar
liar, liar
set my heart on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
liar, liar
baby, set my life on fire
liar, liar
thought you could take me higher
liar, liar
liar, liar
liar, liar
liar, liar
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Orange glow collapse the sky
a guilty fledgling meant to die
dull my senses
I'm not really happy but I guess this will suffice
affairs of the heart they lead to strife
dull my senses
a choir of anguish
conquers me
day after day
I hope to be
buried 7 leagues below the sea
I box all my emotions and store them in the corner
between numbness and joy I tend to prefer the former
erase these moments
there are sights that always astound
the tv in the room won't make a sound
enjoy these moments
In the autumn of my life
I'm meant to fall
if I go
I'll never come back
this I swear
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deep love, deep love, fake love shit
real love, real love, i'm on that numb shit
fuck it, speak no evil, hear no lies
you're speaking devil tongues, get your evil out my life
it's that deep cut, deeply fucked, fuck love shit
feel love, feel love, i'm on that dumb shit
fuck it, i'm calling meteor materia
crash into the water while i'm coasting off delirium
drive your knife inside me
bleed me with that real love
drive your knife inside me
lead me on, unreal love
drive your knife inside me
self-destruct, self-destruction
standing on a bridge hyped on dysfunction
feel the cool breeze
staring out across a sleeping city
black metal and concrete
water shining bright, calling me
this isn't love, this isn't love
don't feel love, unreal love
unreal love
deep love, deep love, fake love shit
real love, real love, i'm on that numb shit
fuck it (unreal love)
fuck it (unreal love)
it's that deep cut, deeply fucked, fuck love shit
feel love, feel love, i'm on that dumb shit
fuck it (unreal love)
fuck it (unreal love)
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Oh I guess i don't know where to go
Oh, directionless
Do I really want anyone to know me
So I relocate alone
So I say hold on up
I say hold on up
I Say
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on
I say Hold On up
I say Hold On Up
I Say
Hold On
Hold on
Ah, Oh
I need more days for my own things
And fresh air
To clear my head
All because you know the work that I’ve been doing
Is melting my mind
I need to leave so it can bring me back
I gotta leave the grind, this time
But they say .. they say they say
They say
Hold On
Hold On (they still sayin)
Hold On (they say .. )
They say hold on up
They say hold on up
They say hold on ..
Hold On
Aaaah, Ahhh
Whoa
Oh
(Hol up dat Hol up dat Hol up dat)
So then I say hold up
And then I say
Ohhh??
Then I say ( Hol up dat Hol up dat) hold on up
And then i say hold on up
And then I say hold (Hol up dat Hol up dat Hol up dat)
So I say hold up
And then I say Oh
Then I say hold up
So I say oh
Then I say hol on up
Oh
Sh,, Qween
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Every day, everything's the same
You pick me up, I fall right back again
You're calling out yet I don't hear a thing
Maybe we're too different
The two worlds we live in
Dreaming separate visions
I'm not solipsistic, I swear I'd admit it
I hold my head high just to show that I'm with it
I'm longing for your love please tell me you'll give it
Just give me a reason, something I can believe in
But I can see it in your eyes (though looks can be deceiving)
But I can see it in your eyes (please don't tell me you're leaving)
And I'll be on my knees, begging, pleading, for you to come home, come home
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I don’t feel sad anymore
I don’t feel sad anymore…
The days are easy
So easy…
I don’t feel sad anymore
I don’t cry anymore…
The days are easy
So easy…
I don’t get sad anymore
I don’t get mad anymore
The days are easy
So easy
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Chasing feathers one at a time
problems in the house
were settled with wine
A carnival spirit
in love with the light
The moon only takes from the soul
in the night
A body found gagged
his face in despair
a moment in time
where the smiles in our faces were fair
A child in bed dreaming of space
left alone in his room by his parents
for days
lover's quarrel turned into hate
but lovers don't squander a turning of fate
The boy in his bedroom grew to despise
the dark weathered world
the rising tide
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This is the soundtrack for the 4 part mini-series, Tyler.
Proceeds from this release support future physical releases on Grimalkin and it helps sustain our work.
Oxford Comma Films Website:
www.oxfordcommafilms.com
You can watch each episode here:
youtu.be/TOU4cqTPSZc
Ep 01: 06/28/2021
Ep 02: 07/05/2021
Ep 03: 07/12/2021
Ep 04: 07/19/2021
Tagline:
“Who failed the test?”
Short Synopsis:
In an alternate telling of history, a test implemented in the 60s determines the futures of graduating high schoolers - if they have a future at all.
Longer Synopsis:
In an alternate telling of history, a test implemented in the 60s determines the futures of graduating high schoolers - if they have a future at all.
Home-schooler turned high schooler Tyler approaches his graduation. He tries to be hopeful for the future, but his dysfunctional home life and the gaps in his education catch up with him. Just as he is coming of age, his age may be coming to an end, as he is faced with a choice that will determine the shape - and length - of the rest of his life.
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CREDITS for Tyler:
Written by:
Erin Pecha + Anthony Tallarico
Produced by:
Mallory Arnason + Anthony Tallarico + O.K. Keyes
Assistant Director:
Erik Anderson
Directed by:
Vanessa M. H. Powers
Cast
Tyler: Noah Bergman
Robert: Noah Gillett
Mariann: Anna Lakin
Rachel Chelsey Grant
Axl Nik Ludgate
Amanda Kayla Coffland
Cecilia Maria Landry
Chad Lucas Zuniga
Officer Pierce Cody Moore
Officer Grey Jared Mogen
Rachel’s Mom Heidi Berg
Rachel’s Dad Stephen Yoemans
Sophia Sally-Anne Hunt
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Director of Photography:
Marc Arnason
2nd Camera/Assistant Camera:
Liz Haan
3rd Camera/Gaffer:
Chris Groschen
Gaffer/Grip:
Pablo Hernandez
Art Director:
Erin Pecha
Additional Art Department:
Laura LaBree
Vanessa M. H. Powers
Hair and Makeup:
Renee Chizek
Sound Recordist:
Drayke Larson
Sound Engineer:
Nick Ducko
Script Supervisor:
Audrey Parks
Editor:
Vanessa M. H. Powers
Editing Consultant:
Tristan Corrigan
Colorist:
O.K. Keyes
VFX:
O.K. Keyes + Vanessa M. H. Powers
On Set Photography:
Daryke Larson
Music Producer:
O.K. Keyes
released June 28, 2021
Each song page has credits for each song in addition to original cover art.
EPISODE 1
“Fear” from Godless Goddess by Spartan Jet-Plex
spartanjet-plex.bandcamp.com/track/fear-3
“Fear”
from Godless Goddess
by Spartan Jet-Plex
Written, Recorded, Produced, and Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
“Patterns (ft. Rob Gibsun)” from Cardinality by Cardinality
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/patterns-ft-rob-gibsun
“Patterns (ft. Rob Gibsun)”
from Cardinality
by Cardinality
Vocal and Lyrics by AG Himself and Ty Sorrell
Produced by Ty Sorrell
Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
“ὁ αἰθήρ” from Amber Ethereal by Thaumiel Sonozaki
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/--7
“ὁ αἰθήρ”
from Amber Ethereal
by Thaumiel Sonozaki
Mastered by Quinton Barnes
Produced and Recorded by Demetria Maldonado
“summer vibez” from howl youth by kate can wait
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/summer-vibez
“summer vibez”
from howl youth
by kate can wait
Written and Recorded by m. kate rodriguez
Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
EPISODE 2
“302” from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE by Don't do it, Neil
dontdoitneil.com/track/302-2
“302”
From I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE
by Don't do it, Neil
Produced, Written, Arranged, and Performed by Mabel Harper
“RIDING HOOD” from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE by Don't do it, Neil
dontdoitneil.com/track/riding-hood-2
“RIDING HOOD”
from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE
by Don't do it, Neil
Produced, Written, Arranged, and Performed by Mabel Harper
“if it breaks, it breaks” from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE by Don't do it, Neil
dontdoitneil.com/track/if-it-breaks-it-breaks-2
“if it breaks, it breaks”
from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE
by Don't do it, Neil
Produced and Arranged by Mabel Harper
Written and Performed by Mabel Harper and hvycharms
Lyrics by Mabel Harper
“you are a tower in my heart” from Blood Rush by kate can wait
katecanwait.bandcamp.com/track/you-are-a-tower-in-my-heart
“you are a tower in my heart”
from Blood Rush
by kate can wait
Written, Recorded, and Produced by m. kate rodriguez
Synths and Drones by whatchamacallet
“Everything” from Godless Goddess by Spartan Jet-Plex
spartanjet-plex.bandcamp.com/track/everything
“Everything”
from Godless Goddess
by Spartan Jet-Plex
Written, Recorded, Produced, and Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
EPISODE 3
“It Won't” by Berko Lover
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/it-wont
“It Won't”
by Berko Lover
Written & Produced by Tiaira Harris
Background Vocals by Cazre Thomas
Guitar by Tiaira Harris
Mix & Mastered by Drewcifer Scott
“LIAR” from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE by Don't do it, Neil
dontdoitneil.com/track/liar-2
“Liar”
from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE
by Don't do it, Neil
Produced, Written, Arranged, and Performed by Mabel Harper
“Bremen to Sumner” from Hit Rendition by Petridisch
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/bremen-to-sumner
“Bremen to Sumner”
from Hit Rendition
by Petridisch
Composed and Performed by Petridisch
“below the sea” from howl youth by kate can wait
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/below-the-sea
“below the sea”
from howl youth
by kate can wait
Written and Recorded by m. kate rodriguez
Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
“Unreal Love” from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE by Don't do it, Neil
dontdoitneil.com/track/unreal-love-2
“Unreal Love”
from I WANNA SEE WHAT DEATH IS LIKE
by Don't do it, Neil
Produced, Written, Arranged, and Performed by Mabel Harper
EPISODE 4
“Hold On Up” by Qween Paz
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/hold-on-up
“Hold On Up”
by Qween Paz
Written, Performed, and Recorded by Qween Paz
Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
“Sadistic” by Quinton Barnes
quintonbarnes.bandcamp.com/track/sadistic
“Sadistic”
by Quinton Barnes
Written, produced and arranged by Quinton Barnes
“Reuptake” from Knock Knock by (Eli)zabeth Owens
elizabethowens.bandcamp.com/album/knock-knock
Written, recorded and produced by (Eli)zabeth Owens
All lyrics by (Eli)zabeth Owens
Mixed by (Eli)zabeth Owens
Mastered by Cecil Decker
howl youth from howl youth by kate can wait
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/howl-youth
“howl youth”
from howl youth
by kate can wait
Written and Recorded by m. kate rodriguez
Mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
“Once It All Hits” by Quinton Barnes from Grimalkin & Friends compilation album
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com/track/quinton-barnes-once-it-all-hits
“Once It All Hits” by Quinton Barnes
from Grimalkin & Friends compilation album
Written, produced, arranged, and mastered by Quinton Barnes