B​/​X

by Don't Do It, Neil

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about

On her new album, B/X, Don't do it, Neil's Mabel Harper ruminates on love and loneliness while shifting into hi-fi and expanding her sonic boundaries. B/X features the incorporation of new eclectic influences, such as R&B and electronic dance music, into Don't do it, Neil's signature DIY bedroom sound. The album's glittery pop sheen forms the hooky candy coating on a raw reflection on the charged interplay between devotion and desire.

Huge thanks to Abby Jeffers at Indientry for premiering this album for us: indientry.com/2019/09/20/dont-do-it-neil-bx/

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released September 20, 2019

Produced, composed, arranged, and performed by Don't do it, Neil. Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Mabel Harper in a messy bedroom in Philadelphia, PA.

Guest vocals by Elora Driver on track 2, "Destroyer"; Nancy Kells on track 3, "Overfamiliar"; Aion on track 5, "Pet Play"; Solely on track 6, "Pornography, Pt. 2"; Berko Lover on track 7, "Deep Love"; and Corinne Perham on track 10, "Pabst Blue Ribbon."

Artwork and layout by Mabel Harper.

Thank you Cass, Corinne, Adelaide, Sadia, Elora, Nancy, Sean, Tiaira, Matt, Clement, Amy and, last but not least, thank you for listening. Please take care of yourself.

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Track Name: Strawberry Cake
pushing me away
but you're sweet like strawberry cake

control
why do i need you to make me whole?
my delusion, stuck in confusion
why do i need you to fill my soul?

illuminated

pushing me away
but you're sweet like strawberry cake
Track Name: Destroyer (feat. Elora Driver)
hit me up when you wanna play
when i hit you up, you don't show your face
girl, don't act surprised like you don't know
cuz you keep telling these lies, but baby i know
i know, i know
girl, don't act surprised like you don't know

don't even act like you meant for this to fucking happen
you've got a lot on your plate, that doesn't excuse my actions
the way i think about it now, it's like it never happened
but that's really just a lie, yeah, my mind is fractured
between reality and all i thought we were
but the more i try to make it right, the more the truth just becomes more obscured

i think i needed you more than you ever needed me
but now you've giving me anxiety attacks, you won't even let me breathe

i know, i know
girl, don't act surprised like you don't know

i know
i don't know
i'm so sus
i don't know

never forever
time destroys everything

i'll ruin everything (i'm so sus)
why do i ruin everything?
 
i'm so sus
got no trust
nothing's ever enough
you're too sweet
i can't breathe
and you're too good for me

never forever
i will destroy everything
Track Name: Overfamiliar (feat. Spartan Jet-Plex)
we keep falling apart
we must be getting overfamiliar
cuz i keep breaking your heart
is it cuz i'm getting overfamiliar?
overfamiliar
overfamiliar

i am too much to hold
no one can keep me
we are lost in the fold
keep lifting up our souls
we must be getting overfamiliar
cuz i keep breaking your heart
is it because i'm overfamiliar
and we are far too much to hold?
is it because i'm overfamiliar
and we are far too much to hold?
we keep on falling apart
we keep on breaking our hearts
we keep on falling apart

we keep falling apart
we must be getting overfamiliar
cuz i keep breaking your heart
is it cuz i'm getting overfamiliar?
overfamiliar
overfamiliar

you know me too damn well
how can i love you when i don't even love myself?
i don't even love myself
i wanna love myself
you're too good for me

don't go
Track Name: Interlude I: Body
all i know's how to talk with my body
just wanna mean something to somebody
oh, i hope they'll never let me go
Track Name: Pet Play (feat. Aion)
talk me down and out of these clothes
do you like me when i'm bad?
hit me up, baby, just say what the fuck you want
i'll give it up, give it all up
just for you, i'll be bad

show me love
i'm addicted to your love
i'm fucked up off your love
i'm fucked up

baiting
flaking
making
breaking
coulda
oughtta
wanna?
nada
capture-bonding, your cunning and conning
got my mind offline and my body responding
quick grip, flip, whip, sweet trip, then skip, i'm undid
shit, you stripped me down from superego to id
at the end of your string, tug, tug, i'm your plaything, you're my drug, drug
pass the pain and stop the buck, buck, love me not, i still wanna fuck, fuck
fuck me up from dusk till dawn, yeah, put me down 'cause i'm your pawn
uh, play me like a drum, come on, i'm coming, baby, lead me on

hit me up, baby, just tell me what you want
i'll give it up, give it all up
just for you, i'll be bad

girl, you gotta show me love
i'm addicted to your love
i'm fucked up off your love
i'm fucked up

show me love
give it all up

i'm begging you, show me love
i'm addicted to your love
i'm fucked up off your love
i'm fucked up
Track Name: Pornography, Pt. 2 (feat. Solely)
it's all yours, cuz you treat me right
my body's yours for tonight
descend deep in my body
ascend me from my body
from my body tonight
free me from my body tonight

things aren't usually what they first seem
looking back it's like you woke me from a bad dream
naturally i'm prone to sad sack apathy
but in fact you put something real in the lack of me
real, deal, catching feels
like you broke the seventh seal
cuz i don't have any chill
but i'mma flex, don't do it, neil
a manic satanic, you make me
antsy and panicked, cuz i'm a
romantic faggot, you put the
love where the lack is, the fact is
i don't know what you see
but you're the air that i~
so draw the sword out of me
and take control of my body

it's all yours, cuz you treat me right
my body's yours for tonight
descend deep in my body
ascend me from my body
from my body tonight
free me from my body tonight

i take you for granted
you hate me for that shit
i don't even mind
your sex is sublime
you know you're like a dream
my sleep paralysis
sultry minx atop my sheets
try my hardest not to blink
cuz my eyes close and all I see
murder murder, first degree
she's like ingesting ecstasy
hence the clenching of my teeth
... getting handsy in backseat of taxi
no wonder uber rated me so badly

it's all yours, cuz you treat me right
my body's yours for tonight
descend deep in my body
ascend me from my body
from my body tonight
free me from my body tonight
Track Name: Deep Love (feat. Berko Lover)
i need you inside me

all these worlds inside me
this deep love inside me
don't you know you divide me?
as you defy truth, you define me

deep love

liminal deity
who kills my sobriety
pornography on the tv
stirring my anxiety
baby let's quit this playing, cuz, love you've got me praying
i know i've made mistakes, take what you wanna take
no talk right now, shut the fuck up right now
don't wanna fight now, just fuck me right now

just fuck me right now
show you deep love right now
deep love 

corrupt me, just fuck me, don't trust me, i need you to love me
you bite me and fight me, just hurt me, i need you to spurn me
convert me, then comfort me, cum for me, and i'll let you choke me
you ride me, divine me, divide me, but I need you to spite me

are you my little whore?
get ready for more
we can go like it's war
are you my little whore?
none of them compare to you
none of them could bear to do
what you even dare to do
your head could do
i swear it's you
i have been to many shores
and i have witnessed many wars
and i have opened many doors
and i have fucked scores and scores
but none of them compare to you

deep love
got that deep love
Track Name: Interlude II: Soul
is it unnecessary to say?
but there's just something that i need to say
fuck religion, but i'll pray
that the words just come out someday
i've been spending all of my days
thinking about what i need to say
you know i love you, but i'm not brave
enough to tell you what that means to me

do you believe in souls?
cuz you're in my soul
bewitched me body and soul
bewitched me body and soul
Track Name: Mercy
mercy, mercy me
what's my prophecy?
self-hate could drown me
but my love could part the seas

sometimes i just wanna die
cuz you take up so much space in my mind
hope you stick with it
cuz you got your girl tripping
i worry away all of my time 

i wait around for you every day
i'm on my knees, but it's not to pray
just stick with it
cuz you got your bitch tripping
i worry away all of my time 

i'm running all the time
i'm running out of time

but i'd much rather waste my time on you
i'll wait forever for you

for you
Track Name: Pabst Blue Ribbon (feat. Corinne Perham)
sometimes it all hurts too much
but then i lay my eyes on you
i really like what we've got going on

don't wanna get out of bed
just wanna waste my time with you
i really like what we've got going on

sometimes life feels like stagnancy
it gets so dark i can hardly see (i really love ...)
but even if life is absurdity
at least when you're there you can laugh with me (... what you've got going on)

i really like what we've got going on
i really like what you've got going on

sometimes it all hurts too much (i really like what we've got going on)
but then i lay my eyes on you (i really like what we've got going on)
Track Name: Handcuffs
i'm a fool
i'm a fool for you

handcuffs, got me in handcuffs
handcuffs, got me in handcuffs
real enough, do i feel real enough in these
handcuffs? got me in handcuffs
dark and faded, barely awake, i sigh, my breath's abated
when i think about you, my heartbeat stutters all syncopated
your look is bladed, can barely make it, can't fake it
you got me naked, i'mma take that back and break it
handcuffs
you can do anything you want with me
except pushing me away 

i'm a fool
i'm a fool for you

don't wanna wake up (if it means you'll stay, then i'll do anything)
don't wanna wake up (use me any way, i'll be your anything)

i'm a fool
i'm a fool for you

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